Progress.

I have been progressing well.
So far.
I ditched the distractions, procrastination and other stuff from my life already.
Sticking to good diet and work plan.
I am working very hard now, though it's holiday.

It's just two years.
I took a long break already.
So I need to move aggressively again.

Two more years.
I will abstain myself from relationships, drama, big vacations etc.

My focus will be mainly- my education business and me.
Will give my best in tuition and me, I will look hot.
47 kg, come on!

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The Fucking Irony

The fucking irony now is that since from 2008, when I have been talking about investments, business and personality types, no one seems to really care. Their answer for the pursue of money is "Money cannot buy you happiness" or "We are still young, chill." And for personality, "You cannot generalize people."

Now when people see finally see the importance of it, they preached about it.
Well, you bitches.
I am way ahead of you guys.

Post-Exam

Just a draft plan on what I am going to do after my exam, in case I suddenly become lost :

1) Read books
2) Workout
3) Register business : Athena Enterprise
4) Clean my room
5) Prepare business proposal
6) Prepare materials for tuition
7) Apply jobs from Kumon, Qdees, Smart Readers

Have to save money and look like a poor girl.
Need to raise capital for business.
Don't touch the Rm3k.

Day 10

Today is my last day of the lemonade diet. I lost 3.6kg. I did something stupid today. I thought of "preparing my body for digestive system" so I drank "Yakult". Then, I felt like puking. The same happened few days ago when I licked a little of cheese and herbs sauce off a spoon. I drank watermelon juice yesterday and few teaspoon of asam laksa maggi soup but that did not happen to me. Verdict: I cannot take creamy, starchy, in other words, any other form of carbs or milk type food.

I thought of starting the Danish Hospital diet a week after Master Cleanse, but i think my body might not be able to take it. I am glad I have made it this far, discliplined enough to stick through the no-solid food phase, but embarking on another diet makes me a little worried about the impact on my body. Maybe I will not take on the Danish Hospital Diet, but I will practise eating food similar to that diet and exercise regularly.

Tomorrow is my first day of exam and I am on track. Need to do the remaining revision.
And I think starting from tomorrow, I might have to take only vegetables and fruits for a week. Only start taking carbs the week after, and slowly introducing meat again.

Although this detox diet may be somewhat extreme, I somehow gained some benefits from it, besides the weight loss and removing off excess toxins and waste from my body. The mental control, the discipline that I have practised throughout these 10 days, not to crave for   unhealthy food which I love such as fried stuff, creamy food and ice-creams. I felt that my throat and nose is also clearer (used to feel that mucus stucked there) I have also become more calm and not so easily irritable (although I do get cranky the first 3-4 days of this diet) And the best thing is; perseverance. Plan your work, and work your plan. It will be beneficial. And stick to it. 

No Pain, No Gain

I am at day 9 of Master Cleanse detox diet. Basically, the diet aims to remove unnecessary stuff that has been in your system. So far, I have lost 3.4kg. If I do not control my eating properly after the diet is over, I may gain all the weight back, or possibly more. This diet consists of drinking laxative tea at night, salt water in the morning and only a liquid mixture of maple syrup grade B/sugarcane juice/ molasses + lemon juice + cayenne pepper. No solid food is allowed during this 10 day fast.

Plans after Day 10:
Day 11 & 12 : Orange juice
Day 13 &14 : Vegetable soup
Day 15: Porridge
Day 16: Eating normal!
Day 17: Normal! :D
Day 18: Start a new diet plan.

This new diet that I plan to start next next week, aims to increase my metabolism and it will last for 13 days.

DAY 1: 
Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar 
Lunch: 2 hard-boiled eggs + 400 g spinach + 1 tomato 
Dinner: 200 g roast beef + 1 lettuce with oil and lemon juice 

DAY 2: 
Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar
Lunch: 250 g ham + 1 can of natural yogurt
Dinner: 200 g roast beef + 1 lettuce with oil and lemon juice

DAY 3:
Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar + 1 slice of toast
Lunch: 2 hard-boiled eggs + 1 slice of ham + 1 lettuce 
Dinner: boiled celery + 1 tomato+ 1 fresh fruit (apple, pear, orange) 

DAY 4: 
Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar + 1 slice of toast
Lunch: 200 ml orange juice + 1 can of natural yogurt
Dinner: 1 hard-boiled egg + 1 rubbed out carrot + 250 g cow cheese

DAY 5: 
Breakfast: 1 big rubbed out carrot 
Lunch: 200 g steamed code with lemon juice + 1 spoon with butter 
Dinner: 200 g roast beef + 1 rubbed out celery 

DAY 6: 
Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar + 1 slice of toast
Lunch: 2 hard-boiled eggs + 1 big rubbed out carrot
Dinner: 1/2 chicken + 1 lettuce with oil and lemon juice

DAY 7: 
Breakfast: 1 cup of unsweetened tea 
Lunch: nothing (drink lot of water, it helps!) 
Dinner: 200 g lamb steak + 1 apple 

DAY 8: 
Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar
Lunch: 2 hard-boiled eggs + 400 g spinach + 1 tomato 
Dinner: 200 g roast beef + 1 lettuce with oil and lemon juice

DAY 9: 
Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar
Lunch: 250 g ham + 1 can of natural yogurt
Dinner: 250 g roast beef + 1 salad with oil and lemon juice 

DAY 10: 
Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar + 1 slice of toast
Lunch: 2 hard-boiled eggs+ 1 slice of ham + 1 lettuce 
Dinner: 1 boiled celery + 1 tomato + 1 fresh fruit (apple, pear, orange) 

DAY 11: 
Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar + 1 slice of toast 
Lunch: 200 ml orange juice + 1 can of natural yogurt
Dinner: 1 hard-boiled egg + 1 rubbed out carrot+ 250 g cow cheese 

DAY 12: 
Breakfast: 1 big carrot 
Lunch: 200 g steamed code with lemon juice + 1 spoon with butter 
Dinner: 250 g roast beef + 1 rubbed out celery

DAY 13: 
Breakfast: cup of coffee + 1 cube of sugar + 1 slice of toast
Lunch: 2 hard-boiled eggs+ 1 big rubbed out carrot 
Dinner: 250 g chicken + 1 lettuce with oil and lemon juice

If you are hungry, drink water, at least 2 l/day. 
     The lettuce should be fresh. 
     The code (the fish) can be replaced by trout or plaice. 
     Coffee cannot be replaced by tea or the other way round. 
     The natural yogurt is the non- pasteurized one, without sweeteners or fruits addition. 




*Detox at first, then increase metabolism...seems like it's I am on the right track. :)
After the end of this second diet, I will eat vegetables and fruits only for lunch and anything I like for dinner.
Coupled with regular swimming and pilates, I am on my way. ;)

Flipside

It has been ages since I actually write.
But I have been through alot of changes lately, and I am still changing.
Youth is the time where you take risks and you explore, make mistakes and learn.
And at 22, this is a very critical stage of life for me.
I am morphing, changing and trying to re-create the person I want to be.
Maybe it's just me,
My craziness and insanity is difficult to take by many.

I am young, curious and sensitive.
I used to think I can take criticisms well,
But this at confusing low point of myself where I need to bring myself up,
Where I try to redefine me, where I try to make myself feel valuable again,
I do not need people to bring me down.
I may be difficult to take,
I know that for a fact,
I do not trust people easily, though I appear to be nice to most people,
And I placed high value on certain things,
And those who can accept me for who I am,
Who encourages me and stick by me,
I swear I'll do anything for them,
Even if I have to sacrifice anything; body, money,time  etc

There are people in my life that I have decided to shut out.
They meant alot to me,
And maybe because I disappoint them a lot,
They use harsh and insensitive words towards me,
And not giving me the support I need to go through this difficult phase of life.
I feel like they are threats to my identity,
I feel like they are judging me every single step I am about to take,
I feel betrayed, for opening up so much to them only for them to pierce me back,
I feel like I disappointed them.

I may be at fault for their behaviour towards me,
But I never done anything to hurt them personally,
And this withdrawal may gonna hurt,

Maybe one day, when I am complete,
I can go back to them and truly enjoy time with them without thinking about flying,
Though they might not be my side through this journey,
I would still thank them for bearing with me for a long time,
People have limits, don't they?

On a different note,
Just a quick update on what I have been doing lately.
I am trying to study for my finals which is coming very soon,
I need to score both subjects at least A- for me to hit a targeted cgpa,
In order for me to get a scholarship for masters.
My first step in maximizing my coursework marks has been successful,
I got A and A- each.

I am trying to lose weight.
After my exam in May,
I swam 6 days a week, 20 laps.
Managed to drop about 2kg and see a little shape on my abs,
But gained additional 3kg when my friends came back from overseas and all the late night supper and all the delicious food we treated ourselves with.
I tried exercising again, trying to step up my game,
But I get very hungry and most of the time, my efforts get wasted.

I see most girls lose weight by dieting.
And I tried to do the same.
I discovered this detox diet called the "Master Cleanse Diet"
Which is a liquid diet for 10 days.
The mixture of liquid contain sufficient nutrients for one to survive.
I am at my day 3, still surviving, though I can't stop thinking of food.
And yesterday when I weighed, I lose 2kgs in 2 days.
Although the half of the weight may come back once I start eating solid food,
I decided to control my intake well and choose healthier options in order to maintain the weight loss.

Besides that, I have also decided to not take the employment path,
I will embark on my journey of being an entrepreneur,
It may not be easy, but it will be very rewarding.

I know I can get extreme in the things I do,
But what's life if you don't push yourself to your limits?
If you cannot accept me, that would be something I cannot be bothered to deal with.