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Monday, September 27, 2010

Unbelievable Genetic Hybrid and Mythological Animals









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Scary.

Sources : http://www.vyperlook.com/odd-strange/unbelievable-genetic-hybrids-and-mythological-animals/

Teenage Dream



I love Katy Perry. She is so gorgeous and sexual. Especially in her songs.
Here is the interpretation of one of her latest song. "Teenage Dream".

Warning. Discretionary Content. This post may contain material that is either inappropriate or offensive to some audiences, especially those with no sense of humour.

Verse 1:

You think I'm pretty Without any make-up on
(You think I'm pretty without any clothes on)
You think I'm funny When I tell the punch line wrong
(You think i'm sexy when I mistaken your flesh stick for an ice-cream stick)
I know you get me So I'll let my walls come down, down
(I know you want me So I'll let my clothes come down, down)

Before you met me I was a wreck
(Before I met you, I used to do it by myself)
But things were kinda heavy
(But there's some place I cannot reach)
You brought me to life
(You make me feel alive again)
Now every February You'll be my valentine, valentine
(Now every February, I'll wont be alone anymore)

Pre-chorus:
Let's go all the way tonight, No regrets, just love,
(Let's make love all night, No regrets, just love)
We can dance until we die
(We can fuck until we die)
You and I, We'll be young forever
(You and I, we have endless stamina)

Chorus:
You make me Feel like I'm living a Teenage Dream
(You make me feel like a virgin having her first time)
The way you turn me on
(The way you penetrate)
I can't sleep
(Feels so good, don't feel like sleeping)
Let's runaway
(Let's keep on going)
And don't ever look back
(Don't ever pull out)
Don't ever look back
(Don't ever pull out)

My heart stops When you look at me
(I feel dead when you do nothing but just look at me)
Just one touch
(Just touch me)
Now baby I believe This is real
(This love is real)
So take a chance
(So go on, have another ride)
And don't ever look back
(And don't ever pull out)
Don't ever look back
(Don't ever pull out)

We drove to Cali And got drunk on the beach
(We drove to Cali And had sex on the beach)
Got a motel and Built a fort out of sheets
(Checked into a motel and dirtied the sheets)
I finally found you My missing puzzle piece
(I finally found a boner that fits me)
I'm complete
(I'm satisfied)

Repeat Pre-chorus and Chorus

I might get your heart racing In my skin-tight jeans
(I will make your blood rush towards gravity with my nice sweet ass)
Be your teenage dream tonight
(Be your fantasy tonight)

Let you put your hands on me
(You can touch anywhere you like)
In my skin-tight jeans
(Especially my nice sweet ass)
Be your teenage dream tonight
(Be your fantasy tonight)

This might be what Katy Perry's trying to say.
If you think this is sexual, you should checkout her other songs such as "Hummingbird" and "Peacock".

Happily Ever After?
























Friday, September 24, 2010

Marley & Me

I watched this show just now on Astro. I know, old show but it's something that I didn't managed to watch last time.

Dogs. Never really have much thoughts on them. Do not know much significance and importance of them neither. My dad loves dogs. But he is always too irresponsible to take care of them.
He brought several dogs home before and then gave them away.
It's like bringing back toys and to take them away later.
It was more of a burden actually, cleaning their poo and buying their food.

But there is this particular dog my dad brought back. It was the dog we last had too.
It was a cross breed between a golden retriever and a chow chow.
Father chow chow. But mother golden retriever.
So it has face of a father, nose like the mother.
Legs also like a golden retriever's.
Tail very cute, like a bouquet of flowers.


I find it very cute.
Like a hybrid of bear and lion.
It was very temperamental and shy.
It doesn't simply bark at people, unlike the previous dogs.
It somehow managed to know which are strangers and not.
Other dogs will be bark at the garbage men or postmen.
But this dog....very chilled. Just sit and stare.
Everytime when I come home from school, it will rush to me and hump my legs.
Whenever it wants to poo, it will make some noises so we will take him out for a walk to poo.
Every morning, when it will start making noise.
My dad will be too lazy to take him out.
Sometimes, he will get mad and just shut the front glass door and let it whine.
Then, I will have to force myself to get up and take it out for a walk.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention its name.
"Lui" or which means "money" in Hokkien.
So whenever we call him, it's like calling money to come over.

Although it's cute, I still find it a burden or rather troublesome.
But there is one day, I feel rather..... I just wanted someone to hug.
So I call it over and put my arms over it.
It didn't move. It looked like it kinda enjoyed me hugging it.
So cute.
I took a toy stick, waved it at him. He stood up with its tail wagging excitedly.
I threw the toy stick, thinking that he will bring it back to me, like what all golden retrievers would do.
But unfortunately, this dog is plain weird. It picked up the stick and ran away.
I had to chase him to get back the stick.
Oh yeah, as he grew, he became heavier.
Whenever I took him out for a walk, when it ran, I have to follow it because it was too heavy.
Sometimes I just purposely stood there, trying to show him some authority.
But he was too strong for me.
Nothing special, actually. Isn't that what usually people experienced when they have dogs?

There's this one scene that caught my attention.
My mom was a babysitter and we had this little girl, about 1 yr old plus. She can walk and talk.
Very cute girl.
She got so used to see us calling "Lui" over so she tried calling one day.
Lui came over and poked his head through my front door fence. (what do you call door with holes?)
She would attempted to touch it, reaching out her little hands to touch its nose.
Then, tried to grab its fur on its head.
She squealed excitedly and pull back her hands.
Then, she laughed and jumped like a silly girl.
Then, she reached out her hands to touch it again.
Lui just sat there, blinking, letting her do whatever she wants.
That suddenly made me feel that it was so human.
It didn't seem like an animal, which would bite or lick given an opportunity.
It just seem......to understand.
And I thought animals can't think or rationalize.

It just seem amazing to me.
Watching her play with the dog.
Even with the doors opened.
It just sat there, as if like protecting her and letting her do whatever she wants.

We gave him away in the end.
It was a good dog, but we couldn't afford the time to take care of him.
He deserved a better owner.
I actually saw tears in my sister's eyes when we gave him away.
She is not the type to express her feelings or cry.
I guess he did meant something to her.
Last time, I would purposely drove over to the new owner's house with a snack for him.
He came excitedly when I called out to him.
Then, I would touch it and watch him for awhile.
When I was about to leave, it started whining. As if it was crying.
As I drove off, I can still hear him barking and whining.
As if saying, "Don't leave me alone here. Take me back. I miss you."
I stopped visiting him.
Because it made me feel sad.
It made my eyes watery whenever I leave him.

He is a good dog.
And he deserves a better owner than me and my family.
Did you notice that sometimes I use "he" instead of "it"?
Because there is some sense of humanity in that dog.
He seem to have emotions and feelings too, just like us humans.

I am sure most of you have your own stories to tell, if you have a dog.
How you got it, what it did, how it ran away or how it died.
I've got a good friend, Charisse, who cannot seem to get over her dog tat ran away.
Even a new one cannot replace or help her overcome her longingness for the previous one.
She couldn't feel or show much affection towards the new one.
I guess the old one stole her heart and ran away.

Marley & Me was a nice movie.
Horrible dog but it was the best dog the couple ever had.
The movie ended with Marley dying of old age.
Owning a dog always end with sadness, because dogs don't live as long as humans do.

I guess things do come and go.
Happiness is only for rent, I suppose. Not for sale.
God gave us good things and only to take them back in the end.
I am not sure why.
But I guess the only thing we can do is to appreciate what we have now, while it's still there.
And have no regrets later when it comes to an end.

I shall end this post with a quote from the main character from the movie.

"A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbol means nothing to him. A waterlogged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. It was really quite simple, and yet we humans, so much wiser and more sophisticated, have always had trouble figuring out what really counts and what does not"


Broken

Things have been going bad for me lately. Especially these 3 months.
I got my heartaches, both my cars broke down
and worst of all, my pimples keep breaking out.

Fancy having depression right before exam. Fancy having angry clients calling.
I wished I could just sleep and not do anything.
Gah...part of life. Maybe it's just bad luck the ghost month is bringing.

So what does a girl do when she is under extreme depression?








She cuts her own hair.
Or go for a haircut.
Because she needs a change.
This is what girls usually do, isn't it?
That willingness to give up the long hair, which they once felt proud of.
And now chopping it off.
Because as much as how beautiful it is, it carries a burden
Hoping that she can leave her old self behind.
And live as a new person again.

I had a haircut today.
Kinda short.
Goodbye my long brown curly hair.
And I look awful.
Sigh.
(I am not going to upload photos, if you really wanna see, make an effort to see me LIVE)

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

World's Largest

1.World's Largest Arthropod


Hail Crabzilla! The Japanese Spider Crab is the biggest arthropod on Earth--their legs are believed to grow up to 12 feet long. But since they live at such great depths (typically 1,000 feet down or so) a full grown spider crab has yet to be caught. So for now, we'll have to make due with the 5 foot long Crabzilla (that's what it's called--I didn't make it up!), one of the largest known crabs in the planet

2.World's Largest Human Rainbow


On September 18, 2004, over 31,000 students, faculty, staff and alumni of the Polytechnic University of the Philippines broke the record previously held by the Maltese. They used the human rainbow to celebrate the university's centennial, which was from 1904 to 2004, and to highlight the signing of the Declaration of Peace which will be submitted to the United Nations.

This beat the previous effort of 2003, when 11,750 individuals assembled in Floriana, Malta, to break the record.

3. World's Largest Hand


24-year-old macrodactyly patient Liu Hua, from Jiangsu, China, was recognized in 2007 as the man with the world's largest hand. He was born with a left thumb, index and middle finger much larger than normal, which grew dramatically together with his arm as he grew older and has had a serious impact on his work and day-to-day life.

When Liu was hospitalized in Shanghai in July 2007, his left thumb measured 26 centimeters, his index finger was 30cm and his middle finger 15cm. The overall weight of his left arm was about 10 kilograms. Surgeons ended up making a seven-hour operation to reduce the size of Liu's fingers and thumb, removing 5.1kg of flesh and bone in the procedure.

4.World's Largest Goldfish


It might look like an enormously generous fairground prize. But no goldfish bowl in the world could contain this catch. The orange koi carp weighs 30lb – the same as an average three-year-old girl – and is thought to be one of the largest of its kind ever captured.

5.World's Largest Chocolate Bar


It is a chocolate lover's dream. Armenian company Grand Candy unveiled the world's largest ever -chocolate bar — a 10-inch-thick slab weighing in at 9,720 pounds and measuring 18.4 feet by 9-feet. In a televised ceremony, representatives of Guinness World Records measured the dark-chocolate bar and handed a document to company managers certifying it as the new record-holder

6.World's Largest Natural Breasts


Norma Stitz, real name Annie Hawkins -Turner, was born in Atlanta, Georgia. She attended Jackson State University and got a BSW (Bachelor of Social Work). Norma began sending in pictures to publications in the early 1990's and there were finally published in 1994. Treated mainly as a curiousity, the magazines soon learned that there are many men out there that really do love big breasts like this and she began appearing in more mags. By 1997 she was also making her own movies as well.

In 1999, the Guinness World Records declared Norma as having the Biggest Natural Breasts in the world and also the owner of the largest bra. Her measurements at the time were 70-48-52". Her bra size was 48V. Each breast weighed 28 pounds and she weighed 270. Since then her breasts have grown up to 72ZZZ and she tops the scale at 345 pounds.

7.World's Largest Serving Of Fried Chicken



Kentucky Fried Chicken, a unit of Yum! Brands, Inc. served 2,493.35 lbs. of fried chicken to the citizens of Louisville – setting the new world record for the Largest serving of fried chicken during the celebration of KFC's 70th anniversary of its Original Recipe of 11 herbs and spices

P/S : I feel like eating KFC now..

Friday, September 17, 2010

Dating At This Age

I am going to make this post really fast, because I am sleepy and I have been procrastinating on studying a lot. So yeah....there will be no editing and filtering, and whatever.

When I was younger, in primary school, I tend to be a bully. I chased boys around and beat them up. Boys were terrified of me and have crushes on many girls except for me. They were like "So Garang. No wonder no boys like."

As long I go around beating guys, looking for new victims to torture, I realized one thing. I was extremely attracted to guys who never seem bothered at all by my "torture". There are two guys in particular, they just looked at me and smiled, never bothered to fight back. I was stunned. And there goes my little heart screaming, "He's the one! He's the one!" I start getting rather obsessive and I know that it will go no where, because I never know that it is possible to have relationship at a young age.

Then at 13 years old, there are a few puppy love here and there. Never lasted, apparently guys seem to be more attracted to my girlfriends than me. I was ugly, I suppose. Spectacles, curly hair and fair. Like some white nerdy chick.

At 14 years old, I got into a relationship with a guy I have spoken for a year online, whom is an elder brother of my best friend's classmate. I never expected it to last for 6 years. I was amazed throughout these years, on what this particular guy sees in me that no one has not able to see. We broke off somehow in the middle of this year.

This thing, we call "love".. What is it actually? Sparks? Fireworks? Infatuations? The One?
Why are we in a relationship? Because almost everyone seem to be having someone, and therefore our lives can only be complete with that "special" someone. I don't believe in all these crap.

"Sparks" is an idea of whom you thought the person would be the moment you saw them. You fall deeply and become very obsessed with that person. The more unreachable that person is, the more desirable that person becomes, to you. When you get to know them better, you start to notice their flaws and very often what you expect is different from reality itself. That's why it never last.

Infatuation is when you communicate with someone, suddenly the moons and stars start to align, it's like you have the same connection wire. And you tell yourself, "This might be it! This might be it!" Then, "Oh noo....this doesn't feel right." Because it doesn't align with your expectations as well.

"The One". I have no idea about this actually. I don't quite believe in this neither. But I believe in true love. And what is true love? I think I have experienced it before.

So what's with all this fuss of being in a relationship?


Do you get upset being single? Do you get sad whenever that person you are chasing after does not felt the same way as you?
Do you get hurt while being in a relationship? Do you fall into depression whenever a break-up occurs?
Do you feel proud showing the world who your other half is? Do you blush when you friends tell you how jealous they are with your relationship?

Whenever you experience hardships, there is someone to think about, who would always be there for you to listen and comfort you. And then when you meet beloved to tell your stories, it happens to be a different situation. You felt disappointed and get very frustrated.

Oh and then girls.....they have certain expectations of what boyfriends should do. Anniversaries, birthdays, valentines, and Blah.

Being in a relationship, you must call each other everyday, meet up as often as possible, to show that you care. Love not only your other half, but your other half's family and friends as well. To show commitment.

You spend less time with your friends and less time on your hobbies & interests. Any excess time is dedicated to your beloved. The extra cash you have too, is being spent on him/her.

Oh, don't forget the jealousies and insecurities which drive arguments. Which spoils your mood to lead another stressful day of life, whether it's studies or work. And affect your performance as well.



So Why do people want to get into relationships?
To feel happy when you have someone to think about, talk to and also to hold?
Are you looking for someone who can make you feel whole?
Someone who compliments you, and you tell others.. "That's my baby..."
And people goo.... "Wooohhhh...you are sure one lucky person!"
Are you seeking admiration and trying to prove to society that you can fit in and you can find someone to call "MINE".

But when you are in a relationship, you have to admit. It felt very differently. Sometimes you want to run away, or probably want to have a break from it. You get frustrated, confused and depressed when what you thought it is, isn't the same with reality.

What I am trying to say is love is an idea.
You meet someone. You get to know that someone better. You start building ideas in your head on how wonderful the person is, what a fantastic couple both of you would be and all the things that both of you could do together.
The idea got buried in your head. And you start to have "feelings".
"Feelings" is what you think with your heart, not with your head, because you could not explain it at all.

So tell me, if you always feel "empty" and "hurt" whether you are having a crush on that someone, you get into a relationship with that someone, you broke up with that someone, WHAT difference will it make you feel inside regardless you are single or NOT?

The "joy" and "happiness" you felt in your relationship cost you a very very high price.
Especially at this age, where you have allocate most of your resources to make that relationship work. When you can actually use that energy for personal growth and development. I believe that we all would love to explore different things in life, whether it is a new hobby, interest, food, place and to meet different people as well. And not to forget to spend enjoyable time with friends. Friends are amazing, because you can never " break up" with them. We would also like to focus on what we're doing, to see how far we can go. So When you get older, you look back and tell your children and grandchildren all your proudest achievements, and thus, eventually find a meaning in life. That's when you feel complete and whole, because you have already found the true meaning of life.

The love of your life is an Idea. ""Sparks" and "Feelings" are temporarily because it is built up in your head and goes down to your heart, the heart which beats frantically whenever that person is around, and the heart which cannot think that makes you do crazy things for that person.

That isn't love. Do you know what is love? Love is commitment. Love isn't really about "the journey of finding the right person" to be happy with and all. Love is when you stay no matter what happens and you would do anything, including sacrificing the things you like, in order to make the relationship work. This usually comes in context of marriage. Just look at our parents, although they are fighting, they still stay together for the sake of the children and their marriage. They get very stressed up in their daily lives but they still have to continue with what they are doing. They sacrificed some of the things they like to do and not buy the things they want to buy so they use the money to pay for the family needs. They would rather get something their children like than to buy what they like. When things go real bad, they could drop all the things they do and run, but they did not because it is responsibility and commitment. THIS is love.

SCREW those movies and songs which give us a whole different idea about love and romance.

To be honest, I don't think anyone of us, is ready for commitment.
So why don't we just lay back, breathe life and laugh at all the stupid things that we can do now.
We fall, we pick ourselves up again and we learn.
Let's push ourselves to the limit to test our abilities.
Because time is running short. This is the time for our very own "soul-searching".
There may not be much time left, then we finally dedicate ourselves to LOVE.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Hillarious Bikini Photobombs













The next one is not a photobomb...but it will turn off Twilight Edward's Fans...

(click on the picture to enlarge)


Sources : http://thisisphotobomb.com

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

My Immortal


I have been listening to this song by Evanescence for ages and Now only I realized the meaning of the lyrics! Silly me! Here is the interpretation.. [yes, it's from me but you will find it hard to deny my interpretation of this song's meaning ;) ]

My Immortal is actually a break-up song, which reminds you of a person that you can never get out of your head. And that person lives in you, like an immortal.



To really feel the emotions, try turning on this song while reading the lyrics.
Here are the lyrics:

Verse 1:

I am so tired of being here
(I am feeling very bad now)

Suppressed by all my childish fears
(I have always fear of losing you, but now it has become reality)

If you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
( If I could erase all the pain I feel for you, I would...)

'Cause your presence still lingers here
(Because the memories of you keep coming back)

And it won't leave me alone
(And I will never be able to forget you)

Pre-chorus:

These wounds won't seem to heal; this pain is just too real
(This pain will never go away because it's too real)

There is just too much that time cannot erase
(Whatever happens I will never be able to forget you because of the good memories we had together)

Chorus:

When you cry, I wipe away all of your tears
(I do anything to prevent you from getting hurt)

When you scream, I'll fight away all of your fears
(I go an extra length for you because I love you)

I held your hand through all of these years
(I have always been here for you, haven't you realized?)

And you still have...all of me
(You have taken a large part of me away when you left me)

Verse 2:

You used to captivate me, by your resonating light
(You used to complete me by just being here with me)

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
(I still wish to feel how I used to feel when I was with you, now that part of me is lost forever)

Your face, it haunts
(I still have images of everything about you in my head, even in my dreams)

My once pleasant dreams
(All the good times we had together...)

Your voice chased away, all the sanity in me
(How can you let all of that go? Do you know the pain I am going through since you left me?)

Repeat Pre-chorus

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:

I try so hard to tell myself that you're gone
(I try so hard to forget you, but I failed and you will never come back)

But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along
(You still linger in places I go, sometimes I still thought that you were with me, but when I look again and see that you are not here with me anymore, I realized how lonely I actually am)


Repeat Chorus


Amy Lee is Deep, very deep with her meaningful lyrics and soulful voice.
I wish to explore further in her other songs, but here I go. Exams.
It's a good song to mourn over lost ones, but don't listen to it too often now that you know the meaning, it brings a negative impact on your emotional side.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Special You


One of the reasons why I loved you so much because you're so rigid that girls don't understand you...Hahaha...

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Type 7

What I have recently discovered, besides the the MBTI/Jungian Types, enneagram, my new psychology obsession, I am type 7.

The Adventurer (the Seven)

Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.

How to Get Along with Me

  • Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
  • Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
  • Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.
  • Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.
  • Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.
  • Don't tell me what to do.

What I Like About Being a Seven

  • being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down
  • being spontaneous and free-spirited
  • being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun.
  • being generous and trying to make the world a better place
  • having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures
  • having such varied interests and abilities

What's Hard About Being a Seven

  • not having enough time to do all the things I want
  • not completing things I start
  • not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career
  • having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies
  • feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship

Sevens as Children Often

  • are action oriented and adventuresome
  • drum up excitement
  • prefer being with other children to being alone
  • finesse their way around adults
  • dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up

Sevens as Parents

  • are often enthusiastic and generous
  • want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life
  • may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive

Sources :
http://www.9types.com

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Rebound 2

Rebounding

Everybody has heard of the rebound fling. This is a relationship that comes very quickly on the heels of another relationship ending. Rebounds are rarely based on love but are really a way of alleviating the loneliness people feel when a relationship ends. Even people who wanted their previous relationship to end can fall for the rebound phenomenon. Rebounding can feel like love for the simple reason that the people involved want to be in love. They are used to being in a relationship and feeling in love and more than anything else they want to feel those things again. They convince themselves they are in love when in reality they are really missing the relationship they left behind. This doesn’t necessarily mean that they want their old partner back it just means that they want to be in a relationship with somebody… and in a rebound phase that somebody could be anybody.

Rebounding is shady because usually one of the people involved has genuine feelings for the other and this person ends up getting hurt when the rebounder comes to their senses (sort of speak). You can never be open to a new love when a part of you is pining for one that has been lost. Rebound relationships are really just emotional band-aids and new love can’t be found when old love wounds haven’t been given time to heal. How can you tell when enough time has passed between the end of one relationship and the beginning of another? How can you protect yourself from a rebound-based relationship? The answers are complex. There is no proven amount of time needed to move on from a relationship and for this reason it’s hard to say how one can protect themselves and their heart from a rebound. However there are some very clear signs that you (or your new beau as the case may be) aren’t quite over a lost love. If the old relationship keeps coming up or interfering with the progress of a new relationship than chances are good that you’re stuck in a rebound. If the rebounder keeps rehashing problems from the past relationship within the new relationship this is a clear sign that they haven’t moved on enough to fall in love again.

Finally, if there are unresolved issues from the old relationship chances are very good that the new relationship is a rebound. Bottom line, if you feel as if the old relationship is a third party in your relationship yours is not a relationship that is based on love. You can’t find new love when you are harboring feelings for an old love or when you are longing to be in a relationship. Love can’t be forced at will, it must be found, and that can only happen for real when our hearts and minds are free.

Sources : http://teenadvice.about.com/od/loveanddating/a/3thingslove.htm

Rebound Relationships

What are rebound relationships? A rebound relationship is one you get into just after a break-up. It is a relationship which you take up on the 'rebound'. Why do people do this? Well, after a break up, when you ask your friends how to get over a break up, they'll tell you that old dating tip about you needing to get into a new relationship. Not that they are wrong, a new relationshipmay make you get over an old one. But the problem with a rebound relationship is what its name tells you about it. It's a 'relationship on the rebound'. So, do rebound relationships work? Here's the answer to your question, 'rebound relationships - do they work?'

Rebound Relationships - Do they Work?
In my opinion, most of the times, rebound relationships just don't work. Let us review the events that lead to and happen in a rebound relationship.
  • Event #1: You break up/get dumped by someone you really love.
  • Event #2: You sulk and wonder, 'Why did he or she leave me?'.
  • Event #3: Your friends cannot bear to see you sad. They take you out to bars and lounges to prove to you that there are many more 'fishes in the sea'. You, on the other hand, sulk.
  • Event #4: Finally, after a lot of convincing, and your inherent desire to prove to your ex boyfriend/ex girlfriend that dumping you was a big mistake, you hook up with someone new.
  • Event #5: You parade your new girlfriend/boyfriend around everywhere. You follow your ex and show off the fact that you could indeed find 'true love'. Your ex doesn't care.
  • Event #6: After you realize that your ex didn't even give your new relationship a second look, and is in fact quite content with himself/herself, and you realize that the basic premise of your current relationship - revenge, itself is not only a wrong way to start a relationship but has also been an awful flop and you're not even sure of your new flame's last name, you know it's over.
All in all, a bad experience for all the parties involved.

What went wrong here? Simply speaking, this rebound relationship was not a relationship at all. It was an arrangement. The basic premise for a relationship should be love and a common desire to keep each other happy. If you started your relationship with the objective of getting revenge; well, then it's going to be a pretty bad experience for you and a worse experience for the 'love' you found on the rebound (who will probably badmouth you for treating them the way you did). Read on for rebound relationships – how long do they last?

Rebound Relationship Advice
So then, what is the best relationship advice to fix that achy, breaky heart? Well, rebound relationships after divorce or after a relationship breakup are not the way to go. Yes, you need to find someone new, but not ANYONE! Take your time, find someone you really like, someone that you share a lot in common with, someone you think you can love for the rest of your life (you may not, but it is always better to start on that positive note!). A loveless rebound relationship only leaves a trail of broken hearts and mends none. Always remember that line... love is never jealous... never brags... does not behave indecently... and so on.

On the other hand, if you are in a relationship with a person who just got off a bad break up, run away. Women are more prone to fall into a relationship with a man who's looking for a rebound because their caring, maternal nature leads them into feeling sorry for them and help them at the cost of the woman's own pride and time. So the best relationship advice for womenis to stay away from such guys. It is rare that a man will fall for a woman on the rebound. If you do not know if the person you're dating is doing so for revenge/self-image improvement, the rebound relationship signs are quite easy to identify. They don't listen, they look around, they don't talk, when they do talk - it's about their ex, they take you on a detective trip to follow their ex, and the worst case is when they draw unfair comparisons between you and the damned ex, with you being on the disadvantaged side in the comparison. Dump that person, you deserve better!


Monday, September 6, 2010

Inside Of You

Inside of you, there is this hollow soul. The emptiness you felt so ever deep that you do not even know the depth.



When nobody is around, you hide in a dark corner. Your black flesh with hollow bones and no blood, you sat there. You raised your hands, your massive hands with claws and slowly scratched your chest. You pulled out your beating heart, the only thing that is glowing in the dark. You took a taste and a bite off your heart. You felt the pain of eating your own heart, but you enjoyed the melancholic feeling. Then, you placed it back into your chest, slowing sewing your chest, closing that gap with a fake smile once you stepped out of that dark corner.

You walked out of the room, the space that you created for yourself.

You are a champion in everyone's eyes.
You are great in everything you do, with the massive amount of effort you put into.
You make others happy and you go extra length for anybody as long they are worth it.
Whenever people mention your name, they always have something good to say.
You have worked all your life to please everyone around you, to be fit in society's eyes.
You take criticism very seriously as you are a perfectionist.
You never hope anything in return for the things you do for people, all you want is a little appreciation.
You are eager to please and you hate it when you hurt someone, whether intentionally or not.
It kills you.
You take the blame for everything, you refused to be engaged in confrontations.
You have extreme of dislike towards conflicts and negativity.
You have little expectations of everything and everyone because you are so afraid of rejections and disappointments.
You look for faults in yourself and regrets the things you have done or could have done in the past.


As much as you try to hide your hollow soul, it shows sometimes.
Those who are near to you are terrified when they saw your other side.
When they touched and seen that scar on your chest and heard the faint beating of your heart, they do either two things.
One, keep a distance from you. Or...
Two, try to fix that broken heart of yours.
What they didn't know is that you've eaten your heart so much that it's almost impossible to save.
They tried saving you by giving some of their heart.
Your heart is already infected with disease and it's affecting the other heart given to you too.
They screamed in pain but insisted to save you.
Finally, they have decided there is no point in doing so and took back their broken piece of heart.
That piece which has been given to you is now swollen and needs time to heal.
And their heart would never been the same again.
They will become more reluctant in giving out hearts again.
They become more selfish and cold-hearted, thanks to the experience of life.

When you sat alone again,
You slowly come to realize that,
Friends and Lovers come and go,
Your family is always there for you.
Your mother whom you have spoken harsh words to,
Your dad whom you have spoken little to,
Your siblings whom you sometimes forgot they existed.

Maybe one day, you will learn to stop hurting yourself with blame and regrets.
Maybe one day, you will stop eating your heart so you will have a nice full heart to give to others who may need it or to give to someone who will appreciate it.
Maybe one day, you will grow an ego so big that you find self-sympathy and people sympathizing you is pathetic.
Maybe one day, you will learn to love yourself.





This post is dedicated to ESFJs, ENFJs, INFJs and ISTJs, and also people who has to face the realities of life despite being depressed about themselves and the things happening to them.
Stop being a cannibal to yourself and others.




Sunday, September 5, 2010

Going The Distance

I love my day today!!
I went yoga in the morning...and this yoga master was talking about happiness and life. He said that being happy or upset is a personal choice, not largely influenced by the things that are happening to us. What he said reminds me of the movie i watched yesterday, "He's Just Not Into You." It's about different relationships of different people.

And then after that, I went out with Jonathan to Mid Valley. We had lunch at this nice Taiwanese restaurant in The Gardens. I love the fried oyster (it's actually one of my favourite foods, it has been ages since I have eaten it!) and the fish dishes; miso lemon dunno what fish & the tomato egg fish fillets. I tried the watermelon milk drink, and surprisingly, it tasted good too. The bill amounted to RM99.25, which i thought was rather expensive for two persons. We shopped for his mother's birthday present. Fast shopping it was. I also tried 3 swimsuits but never bought any of them due to several reasons.

And the best part is the movie!
I have always wanted to watch this movie since I first saw the trailer.

It's about Erin, an intern working at a newspaper company and has 6 weeks left to fly back to San Francisco to complete her studies. She met Garrett at the bar, whose girlfriend has just dumped him. They hit it off right away but made it clear that it would only last as long as Erin is still here in New York. But when it is time for her to leave, it was clear that they still want to see each other again. This was more than just a fling, they would probably be right for each other.

I know that this whole theme for the movie was about the possibilities of a long distance relationship. But I liked this movie for a different reason. It's about the character, Erin, she reminds me so much of myself! Let me list it down :
  • She is always happy and optimistic
  • She is clumsy with her food
  • She is bad in geography
  • She tells funny sexual jokes/crap
  • She doesn't like blubber. Haha... Poor Garrett for trying to keep fit.
  • She isn't afraid of showing affection
  • She likes to look at her man, like he's surreal. Like it's hard to believe you could find someone to love, and loves you as well.
  • She loves writing, like I do. I always wanted to be a journalist.
  • She has sacrificed her studies and work for her previous relationship, which shows her commitment in making things work. I have done the same, as relationship is more important to me than anything else, although I always seem like a workaholic. But anyway, she vowed herself never to make the same mistake again. Same here.
  • She hates conflicts and hardly gets angry. After an argument, she crawls back to her man and apologizes, whether she is right or wrong. But in reality, I did that and of course, that's why I am always being taken for granted.
  • She likes to ask many random questions. Like when she asked Garrett what he thinks about children, what's his favourite food, how would he like to die and some other weird stuff. If you know me and if you really notice, I tend to ask alot about these. It was lovely of Garrett to answer all those questions willingly and wittily.

There may be some other things that I could have missed out but the point is that, I could be myself and still, one day, I will meet someone who would really love and appreciate me for who I am. There is no need for me to change myself to suit the needs of others. It is possible that one day, I would find this person who would talk and laugh all day with me. We would be so happy without bothering the little stuff because we knew each other so well. He would carry me on the beach and we can make out until the sun sets or when the sun rises. We will make love for breakfast, lunch and dinner. He gets my silly sexual jokes and surprises me always. I love surprises!


After my 6 year long relationship, I was single. I felt empty. I thought all I need was just a caring guy to fill the emptiness. When I entered another relationship, I felt empty too, during the 4 days of minimal communication. I felt empty regardless I was single or not. I have learnt that happiness is not about finding the right person to have a relationship with, it comes from within. I am pretty, intelligent and independent. There is no reason for me to find another who would "complete" my soul. I am so young, only at 20, there is no rush for me to commit so fast. It would be wonderful if I could be with someone who would hold my hand while walking throughout this life and laugh at all the amazing things. We would be amazing.

I am a happy person. I avoid negative energy which would destroy me. And I always deserve to be happy. I am not going to change anything of myself for anybody.

And lastly,
Jonathan, thank you for taking me out.
You're my favourite and most consistent date.
Gorgeous Anna is lucky to have you. Please help me to thank her for her concern. She's a wonderful person, and we both know it.